Today marks a new month. For many it will just be another day. For me it means more than that. I’m one day closer to my goals, and one day closer to death. It’s kinda bittersweet. I’ll put my focus on the former and not the latter. The last few days I’ve been getting lots of ideas and pulling/finding inspiration of all sorts. Truthfully I’m excited to see the progression of this month. Not just of myself, but also what comes of it. I feel the whole music thing is finally becoming cohesive and making sense. Sometimes we deviate from what we’re good at because we want to try new things. Ultimately it can take that very scenario to realize the need to go back. You can still utilize the same gifts/areas of talent you have in new ways. This is what I discovered and now, I’m writing more than ever. If you’re a musician/songwriter/poet/artist of any sort, you know how upsetting it can be to be disconnected from it. This constant push and pulling, an internal war that never ceases. Art is an extension of us. It helps express what words cannot. Sometimes a melody or chord progression can describe what I’m feeling so acutely, when words could never even encompass what I need/try to convey. It is a gift and not a curse. The pages of my notebook continue to fill up, and everyday I fall more in love with my writing style. Big things are on the horizon. Keep watch, you’ll see more from me soon.
A recent conversation I had with a couple friends sparked my idea for this piece. Just some thoughts going through my head this morning. This is a rough edit, as I just wrote it now. Let me know what you think. There’s plenty more where this came from.
Respect the ones who have fallen
The heroes and the earth shakers
The people that have gone before us
Walked this planet and dreamed their dreams
For in death we remember a legacy
Serving its purpose as it ushers in the masses
To celebrate a life now gone but never forgotten
In passing there is mixed joy with sadness
I find it interesting that sometimes it takes death to make the living more connected.
They bond together throwing existing or past conflict to the wayside, because in an instant they realize it’s petty and meaningless.
Sometimes it takes death to realize life is about relationship. Everyone gets close in difficult times of mourning. You can’t take riches to the grave. A wise man once said, “I’d rather die poor with lots of friends than rich and alone.”
This statement, though simple, holds much weight on my heart. It speaks volumes but yet exists only as a short phrase on my notebook page.
I hope you’ll do as I did and take it as more than just text and let it fill up your heart.
I feel as though society distorts our view of what we should do and become in life. Truthfully you should do whatever makes YOU happy. Life is too short to not live it for yourself and settle for less than what you could become. I wanna die a happy man whenever that day comes. I don’t wanna have regrets, I just wanna die knowing people miss me. I wanna die knowing that I inspired others. This is my hope for all of you. That we could all live a life of pure inspiration, and our song could sing so loud it shakes the ground, touching people far and wide. and that we could ALL be truly happy.
I should be sleeping right now, but I can’t. I feel as though tumblr is becoming an outlet/extension of who I am. I promised awhile ago to update this blog regularly, and it’s taken awhile but I’m finally committed to it. It’s not about how many followers I have, it’s just about sharing my thoughts. It’s my creative expression. I do this for me, but if I impact lives in the process, I’ll consider this a win either way. If you like what you read and wanna hear more, then follow me, because things are in full swing. I’m not sure what’s changed but I actually love writing now. I’ve always loved writing songs, but this is becoming a very liberating and peaceful experience for me. I will be publishing my next post in a matter of minutes. Thank you for you time, and please let me know what you think. Feedback is always appreciated.
I haven’t written in quite some time. Here is what’s on my mind at the current moment..
The truth is there’s much of this life I’ll never understand. We live in a world of complete chaos, chance, and unpredictability. Just when you think the plan is set, a roadblock or detour appears out of nothingness, and your “so called plan” is altered. This can occur for good or for bad. Every once in awhile coincidence decides to play the game. What some would mistake as chance may have in fact happened for a reason. I believe things do happen for reason, and we have the ability to decide how to react to them. Whether good or bad situations it’s our attitude in the midst of it that defines us.
In the end we’re still governed by the intricate details. Specificity and elaborate designs are everywhere and in everything. We are big, but yet minuscule in this relative universe. I can’t fathom the physical size the sun actually is, and I never will be able to. I guess I’ve come to a point in my life where I can accept the fact that there is much I’ll never comprehend. And that it’s not my place to understand and question everything. One could spend a lifetime trying to understand all the mysteries of life and still die knowing little more than at the starting point. I do desire knowledge and I’m for the pursuit of enlightenment/wisdom. I just believe it needs to be in moderation, not the focal point of life. If the balance can be maintained, and seeking answers does not yield more confusion, then it is not detrimental.
Though I consider myself a young man with much to learn, I believe I’m heading down the right road. This window of life we’re given comes and goes like a storm passing through a town. We should make it count, because it’s the only life we have. Time is something you can’t slow down. It is also something we typically let pass by. The only control we have over time is to seize moments, and make the most of them. To maximize your time and do meaningful things rather than wasting it. Time is relative. The older you get the faster time goes. This is due to a person’s perception of time. A child has little time to compare to its’ entire existence, therefore time appears to be slower. As you get older the comparison widens therefore time appears to speed up.
I don’t wanna be selfish, and squander my potential in life. I want to make my life count. I want to be there for my friends, family members, and the ones I hold most dear to my heart. I want them to know how important they are to me, and how much they’ve impacted my life for the better. I want them to know how deeply I love them, and that I couldn’t live without them. I want to make a difference, be different, and original. I want to rid myself of fear and lack of motivation. I want to rest in the fact that I know I’m loved and cherished more than I’ll ever comprehend.
And I’m so thankful for her. The one I thought I didn’t deserve. The one in this great world of chance that crossed my path. Coincidence sounds more fitting here. For we were destined to meet. We were placed in this specific location at specific times to connect and converge. Our paths intersected, and we collided, never to be the same again. It was truly perfection, as close to it as humanly possible. Time heals past hurts and helps us see. It helps us learn, and believe. It brings us better things, and new things. It breathes life into dry bones, and removes deep rooted scar tissue. It softens the heart to let even more love in than before. You bet I let this lady in, and she holds this heart in her hands. She is so much more than she’ll ever know.
I may be unsure of a great many things, most of which will remain that way until the day of my demise. However, there’s only one thing I wanted… “I just wanted to be sure of you.” And I can honestly rest easy tonight knowing that I am.
I make good songs like I’ve built sky scrapers in the meantime so we can stay together and learn to fly. The constellations.- are the only things we need.
For those who know me, I don’t usually keep up with social networking/media sites. It is usually because I lose interest in them. That being said, this is going to change. Well, at least for tumblr.
In the next few days you will start to see post of lyrics I’m working on/spoken word, and possibly even video or audio clips of songs. I used to just use this for re-blogging, but now I’m going to turn it into more an original art/music blog.
I’m pretty stoked about this, so get ready!